Friday FLY Day. Rocking my Da G.O.A.T apparel. Slept late. Where ya Gratitudes at Playa?
3.) *makes muscle* I’m strong enough to stay home alone – There were times WE, as a family unit, KNEW I wasn’t strong enough to stay alone. There ARE times I convince folks that I’m good. 🤴🏾 This is one of those times where everyone knows I’m straight. *head nodding* Yoga, meditation, water, foods, common sense and that GRATITUDE JOURNAL kept my imagination and mental space focused on moving forward, healing, learning. I really am good. The Fam is going to celebrate Memorial Weekend, hang outside, eat BBQ and be regular people. I gotta work. I don’t wanna risk missing days because I have a new schedule. I got crazy BID-ness to do, podcast (group AND solo dolo venture), dying to finish my book relaunches. I’m grateful to have so much stuff I WANT to do, grateful I have opportunities to do them, grateful this weekend gives me time to get projects done, grateful they’re still going instead of staying to make sure I’m aight. 🙏🏾👏🏾
2.) Glad there was tissue under my chair – Y’all my Tribe so I’m gonna kept it real. I was cannabi-cating, minding my own business when a rush of smoke adulterated my lungs! 😲😉🤣🤣🤣💨 The kind that makes you choke, hack, cough and then… Yeah, usually ain’t no tissue in the lounge but THIS time, *bows head*.
1.) The Influencer talk – We’re getting clearer and clearer. I’ve gotten distracted (GET distracted) by the thought of making money. Lately, my scheme was kicking off a “reeducating” business. I had funnels, freebies, emails, a whole target audience for coaching people how to handle & manage like I do. My Queen finally said, “I mean, it’s a good idea but I can’t see you WANTING to keep it going. The stress, strain of meeting people at their convenience, debating their progress, following up, reviews… I don’t see you WANTING all that.” She was right. 👸🏾 I don’t. I want to be a beacon of light, inspiration, Influencer. I do NOT want to be responsible for the success of someone feeling as good, fly, grateful as me. I KNOW the process is repeatable, can be made more efficient, even harnessed but there’s a whole dark side to that too. 👀👎🏾🤚🏾 That’s the Influencer talk she slides my way. “Look, all you can do is be you. You know it works, everything you’re doing to keep going, being better. Just do YOU and let folks do them. Money will come as people catch the vibe, not become you.” *deep sigh* She right. If I start that coaching stuff, I’ll open myself to the negativity of strangers when in reality, THEIR commitment will determine the success of their empowerment, not me.
Good talk ButtaFly.🦋
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