Whatever Log! (Random thoughts, questions, opinions. I don’t catch enough dreams for a dream log.)
Gratitude stories!
Remember, the difference between being grateful and showing gratitude is the WHY story. As long as you are writing your story of why you’re grateful, you can’t overthink past decisions, wish for the “good, ol’ days”, wonder how much worse your health will or question if anyone else will leave.
#mindsetoverbullshit
3.) Eye pain! WTF! – I have an Opthalmologist appointment on Tuesday. Now, I gotta “write” this, so I’ll take it more seriously. ‘Multiple Sclerosis is affecting my eyes. I missed my 1st Opthalmologist appointment in early 2023 and late 2023. Occasionally, one of my eyes throbs and reddens, but the fact it happened while I’m about to cancel my appointment is a sign. I didn’t.‘ I even asked my brother and daughter about it. *crosses heart* I’ll wait a little bit longer. That’s the Gratitude. The fact my eye did THIS when I was about to cancel. I’m grateful for the timing. *deep breathe* (Tangent: Pride is my greatest sin. I will not beg. I will not keep asking, reminding folks of my medical needs. Nope, I don’t throw it in anybody’s face later on. The real culprit is Multiple Sclerosis.)
2.) Banging my knee – My posture is horrible. I struggle sitting UP in my wheelchair. Instead, I slouch, legs laying hard to the right, body as upright as possible. All of that is part of my reason for the proper Grade C motorized wheelchair. Last night, I got lazy and didn’t CONSCIENTIOUSLY hold my knees upright. I’ve had a few close calls lately but last night, I banged my knee on the couch. Ouch!!! #lesson Yikes! I’m grateful it wasn’t worse because it damn sure could have been a door frame or counter edge. I’m grateful, grateful and will be more diligent!
1.) She tried THREE times! – Maaaaaaaaan, *sniff* I’m for real, I could cry. Here I was fighting the negative thoughts, scrapping, and wishing for a drink. Not water! Nooooo, Red Bull and vodka. It’s the holidays; families are BBQ’ing, dominoes, shenanigans. I needed a drink. My eldest daughter went to the store THREE times to find me Red Bull. THREE. She’s a grown 22yr, with a J-O-B, life, drama and somehow, she found time to bring ME the righteous equipment for a drink. I feel so loved and important. This is a mental health break and social affirmation. *thumps chest* She has no idea how much this makes my day. She brought two. That’s enough to cover all of Monday!
Previous Gratitude: Sunday, 5/26/24
Next Gratitude: Tuesday, 5/28/24
Self-care Stats (always taken from YESTERDAY’S activities. 🫡)
Did I work out yesterday? –
Yoga – 🚫
Meditation – 🚫
Water – 50oz
Manifestation – Day
Self-talk – B
Feet up 5min – 🚫
Rocking Abductors – 🚫
Standing 3+ min – 🚫
Lay on stomach 5min – 🚫
Sit & stand – 🚫
Bridges x10 – 🚫
Lay on back, abductors x10 – 🚫
Sit and pick toes/front foot – 🚫
Seated Abduction exercises – 🚫
Sleep – 3/1 (hours vs getting out of bed)
